Unbroken Identity reminds us how we are seen by the Lover of our Soul (which is the truth of who we are). We must stay firmly rooted in our God-given identity and refuse to be moved – regardless of failures and shortcomings. We are loved.
- Song of Solomon 4:1 (VOICE) …You, my love, are beautiful. So beautiful!…
- 1 Corinthians 13:12 (ESV) For now we see in a mirror dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I have been fully known.
A white rose represents both purity and a bride. And that is how He sees us: His beautiful, pure, bride. This is our true identity. This doesn’t mean we won’t ever fall short, only that His grace is sufficient when we do.
A Prophetic Nugget from “Daily Downloads from Heaven” by Meghan Williams is connected to this. It’s called “Walk in Confidence.”
Psalm 24:10 (TPT) You ask, “Who is this King of Glory?” He is the Lord of Victory, armed and ready for battle, the Mighty One, the invincible commander of heaven’s hosts! Yes, he is the King of Glory! Pause in his presence
Beloved, pause in My presence and seek Me. Ask Me who I AM, and let Me reveal My heart for you and for all My children. Nothing is more powerful than a person who understands who they are and what they were created to be. And beloved, you were created to be loved by Me.
So wait on Me. Search Me as the most precious of gifts. Trust Me to reveal Myself to you. Ask Me for wisdom and I will joyously grant it to you. I have so much to share. Let Me show you who you are by teaching you who I AM. Walk in the confidence of one who is loved by Me.
A prophetic download from Dorinda Agosto is connected to this. It’s called “Removing the Root of Shame.”
Webster’s defines “shame” as a “feeling of guilt, regret, or sadness that you have because you know you have done something wrong.” It is also “the ability to feel guilt, regret, or embarrassment, dishonor or disgrace.” Shame can become so familiar, almost like an old friend. You know that old friend who your mom told you wasn’t a good influence but you didn’t listen. You look at that old friend and memories of a different time and a different you start to surface. It’s the “before Christ” you, and it isn’t pretty. All of the sudden you are haunted by the shame of your past and it’s crippling. At some point, we have all wrestled with shame. Even the most mature believer can fall prey to shame. I know because it recently happened to me.
I am going to be completely transparent with you, because if it helps just one person, it’s worth it. I am not at all proud of my past. I lived a very promiscuous lifestyle in my youth, and it is by the grace of God and the grace of God alone that I am still alive. Lately, I’ve dealt with female health issues that are a direct result of my shameful past. Not only has it been a scary time, but I fell victim to overwhelming shame. Faces from my past kept popping up in my mind and in my dreams. I was horrified all over again. I was crippled by the knowledge of who I used to be while trying to so hard to let it go, but unable to do so. I clung to my shame because I felt I deserved it.
One morning after reading His Word and worshiping, I found myself crying and praying for God to forgive me for my past. He simply said to me, “I don’t know what you are talking about.” I was dumbfounded. How could He NOT know what I was talking about?! He’s all-seeing and all-knowing, so how could he not know what I was talking about? He told me to read Jeremiah 31:34, “…I will forgive their iniquities and will remember their sins no more.” When we ask God to forgive us for something, not only does He forgive us, but He forgets about it. What a beautiful thing for Him to do!
As human beings, we have a hard time forgiving ourselves. We feel like we do not deserve to be forgiven, and we are past the point of redemption, but NOTHING could be further from the truth. If you want proof, just go to the Word. Scripture tells us nothing can separate us from His love (Romans 8:38-39). His love for us is unconditional. He never tells us to “get our act together” and then approach Him. He wants our mess, our sin, and our shame. He wants us to “approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy…” (Hebrews 4:16). He ever so gently washes us with the blood of His sacrifice. We become a new creation, and the “old” is gone. He washes us white as snow. How does He wash us? With His love!
I would like to share a dream, its interpretation, and then a vision He gave me to help me through this difficult 9 months.
In the dream I was in the living room of my house (but not the one I live in now). The house was comfortable and cozy. The front door faced the north-don’t ask me how I know that, I just do. The street was peaceful and lined with trees. I was doing something in the living room and I got a voice mail on my phone. It was this cute little limerick. Basically it said a package had been delivered at my front door. I opened the door and stepped outside and sure enough, there was a cute red flower-shaped box. The box had a card with the limerick sealed on it with red ribbon.
I looked over at the delivery person and it was my mom. She looked like she did back in the 80’s-90’s. Same knee-length denim shorts a sleeveless shirt and she was barefoot. I wasn’t shocked to see her, what concerned me is she was driving because my sister and I had a hard time getting her to give up driving. She was driving an old red beat-up car. She got in the driver’s seat and I calmly asked her, “Mom, where did you get this car?”
She seemed frustrated. She hung her head and said she couldn’t remember where she got the car. She said it in a voice that sounded like someone who had a stroke. It broke my heart. I glanced in her car and I noticed there were many more packages neatly placed on the passenger side and in the back seat. All decorated like mine but in different sizes. I didn’t want her to be upset and drive so I said, “Wow! You have a lot of people to make happy today!” She smiled a huge smile at me and said, “Yes!” She put the car in gear and drove off. In the next part of the dream, I walked back in the house with the package and placed it on the table. Then I woke up.
Through prayer and the help my friend, Elisa Eaton, the Holy Spirit revealed the interpretation of this dream. Several things stood out. One was the color red representing the Spirit of the Lord, love, and His blood. Elisa had the impression of the life-blood flowing through our veins and the life-giving flow of the Holy Spirit. The gift was red as well as ribbon that sealed the gift and so was the car.
The Father also reminded her of the Hebrew word for love, ahavah. The root word ahav means “to give.” As Ahuva Bloomfield of jewishmag.com writes in her article “The Meaning of Love as Understood from Hebrew Language,” “The process of giving is a vehicle through which the giver through his act of giving is able to, through a physical gift, give himself to another.” The gift came to me from my mom who was driving a car.
The dream centers on my mom giving me a gift. Since she gave me the gift, it highlighted the concept of self-love. In the dream my mom represents an aspect of me, the nurturer and caretaker (the giver). It is easy for us to give love in abundance, but when we are filled with shame, we rarely keep any love for ourselves.
My mom never had a stroke but her voice was distorted in the dream. Elisa explained so well, “Sometimes people are distorted in our dreams. If the person represents us, it could be how we are seeing ourselves at that particular moment in time or in a situation.” When we are filled with shame the image we have of ourselves doesn’t mirror how God sees us. Our image of ourselves is distorted.
Elisa also explained the beat-up car. “As far as the beat-up car, what came to me is, in the context of loving and giving, our hearts (the vehicle through which we love) can most certainly get beat up in life! But there were many gifts in the car-you have a lot of love to give, both from the natural perspective and through the gifts of the Spirit. And despite the condition of the vehicle, you shifted the focus in the dream to the positive-you have a lot of people you can make happy each day through the love you give.”
Also in the dream my front door faced north. North usually represents heaven or something heavenly. It can also mean spiritual warfare as in taking your inheritance. I walked out my front door to claim the free gift of the Father’s love.
Several days later I was worshiping the Lord and He gave me a vision called, “The Box.”
While cleaning my living room I found the red box which had been delivered to me weeks ago. It was buried under newspapers and old mail. I couldn’t believe I forgot about it especially under the circumstances of how it came to me. I picked up the box in my hands and sat down on the couch. I held it up to get a better look. The box was glorious and delicate. It had gold filigree worked into to every other panel around the outside of the box. It looked ancient and yet brand new. I also noticed the box seemed to hold power. I set it down on the table in front of me then I picked it back up. I did this many times. What was I afraid of? It was a gift. It was beautiful and it was for me. Why was I so afraid to open it?
It was then I heard a car out front, and when I looked out the window it was the same delivery car and driver that dropped off the gift, my mom. She stopped across the street to deliver another gift. I ran outside and I asked her if she was sure the gift had been for me.
She smiled at me and said, “Of course! Did you open it yet?”
“No” I replied.
She seemed disappointed and said she had to go do more deliveries. I watched as she drove off down the street periodically stopping to deliver a gift. I walked back inside and looked at the beautiful red box. I couldn’t fathom anything so beautiful was for me.
And then He was there. He walked over to me and said, “That box isn’t going to open itself you know.”
“I know Abba.” I replied.
“Why haven’t you opened it?” He asked me.
“I’m not sure. At first I forgot about it but now it just seems like it’s too extravagant for me.” I said.
At that moment the car and driver came down my street again. He glanced out the window and smiled at her and she smiled back.
“Abba? Do you know her?” I asked.
“Oh yes and she is waiting on YOU to open that box.” He said.
“I feel bad for her.” I said.
“Tell me why you feel bad for her.” He asked.
“Well, this is all she does.” I replied.
“My child what you fail to see it someone who LOVES what she does! She gives every day and yet, keeps nothing for herself. HER joy comes from people opening these boxes she delivers. If you want to help her then you have to open the box.” He said.
Just as I was about to say something He gestured for me to open the box. I walked over and picked it up. For some reason I started to cry like a brokenhearted child. I looked at Him and said, “Please help me.”
He walked over and placed His hands on mine and we opened the box together. When the lid was removed a warm soft golden glow filled the room along with the scent of Heaven itself. It was LOVE pouring out of the box. The most beautiful pure love I have ever felt. The Father’s love, and it was for me. I wept and He pulled me close and stroked my hair.
Then I heard a car stop outside. I turned to look and it was my mom again. She was standing beside her car smiling at the Father and me through the window. We walked out to see her and she was filled with such joy.
“You OPENED it!!!” she shouted with excitement.
“Yes, with His help.” I replied.
“I’m glad! Isn’t His love such a wonderful gift?” She asked.
I said, “It’s the most beautiful gift of all.”
She joyfully jumped back in her car and drove off down the street.
“Abba, will I ever see her again?” I asked.
He replied, “You just might my Child. Just remember to open the box when you do.”
Resisting the Ploys of the Enemy
Shame can distort our perception of ourselves. It can stunt our spiritual walk and our spiritual gifts as well. I do not want to give the enemy any credit, but we need to be cognizant of his tactics and guard our hearts and our minds. He knows how and when to strike, and he is merciless in his attacks against God’s people. And, yes, he will tell you half the truth to get you to believe the lie. So cliche, I know, but true nonetheless. Yes, it was my past that put me in the medical situation I was in, but that didn’t mean I was beyond redemption and it most certainly didn’t mean I did not have my Father’s love. It’s okay to open the box!
I’d like to close with a beautiful word from Elisa. This word is for anyone who is struggling with shame.
“The Father also highlighted something else to me.I sense this is a word for whoever needs to grasp a hold of it. He’s highlighting Romans 10:10, ‘With the heart the man believes…’ He is healing heart issues and calling your thoughts and beliefs about yourself into alignment with His. Instead of that beat up car, it’s time for a new car. I hear Him saying He’s giving you a NEW heart! He is giving you HIS heart, the place where the blood for all the Body of Christ flows from. There is such grace in this. It can be hard for us to love ourselves if it isn’t properly modeled for us here on the earth. That’s why the cross and the Blood of Christ is so powerful. We need to receive from the true Source of love! It is life giving to us!”
Another Prophetic Nugget from “Daily Downloads from Heaven” by Meghan Williams is connected to this. It’s called “I Don’t Deal in Shame.”
Genesis 3:7, 10 (NLT) At that moment their eyes were opened, and they suddenly felt shame at their nakedness… “…I hid. I was afraid because I was naked.”
Beloved, I don’t deal in shame. I bring godly repentance. Shame comes from the enemy of your soul and is intended to bring separation from Me. Resist the urge to succumb to the temptation to embrace it.
Instead trust Me. Trust My loving correction. Know that when I bring things into alignment, it is for your own good. Correction is not an indication that there is something wrong with you, for I chastened all My children.
At every point, each of you can be improving. So refuse to receive My loving exhortations as indications of your worth. Instead, embrace growth and the corrections that bring it. Stand fast in the understanding that I do not expect perfection, but rather yieldedness, and a love for Me and the things of Me. Know that you are loved.
Proverbs 3:12 (NLT) For the LORD corrects those he loves, just as a father corrects a child in whom he delights.
Another Prophetic Nugget from “Daily Downloads from Heaven” by Meghan Williams is connected to this. It’s called “Shame is Rooted in Fear.”
Genesis 3:7-8 (VOICE) Suddenly their eyes were opened to a reality previously unknown. For the first time, they sensed their vulnerability and rushed to hide their naked bodies, stitching fig leaves into crude loincloths. Then they heard the sound of the Eternal God walking in the cool misting shadows of the garden. The man and his wife took cover among the trees and hid from the Eternal God.
Beloved, shame is rooted in fear, but My perfect love casts out all fear. So draw near, and receive My love in full measure. Do so that you might know what it feels like to have the burden of shame removed. I never designed you to be weighted down by shame.
Beloved, I long for you to walk in the fullness of your freedom – naked and unashamed – with no fear causing you to hide your face from Me. I desire fellowship with you. I know you, and I love you – in all your beautiful imperfection. I accept you as you are, and I call you My very own. So resist any temptation to allow fear and shame to take root, and instead allow My mercy, love, and grace to make you whole.
A word called “No More Shame” from Dorinda Agosto is connected to this.
“Who am I O Lord that you would be mindful of me?
You say Your love for me is true, but I just can’t see how that can be.
I know the shameful things I’ve done.
Horrible things that cost You You’re one and only son.
I hang my head in shame.
Trying to tune out Your voice as you call my name.
I can’t look at you. I can’t let you see
All the ugly that is inside of me.”
But you gently lift my chin, wiping away all my tears.
You tell me, “Beloved I have been chasing you for so many years.
Now that I have you, I am never letting go.
I know your all your deeds and I love you anyway just so you know.
Let me wash you clean and pour fresh oil in your head.
You are now alive in me, no longer dead.”
Your words pierce my heart and take away my breath
As I realize I am no longer a slave to death.
I am alive in Christ, the Risen King!
In Him I will put my hope and sing…Hallelujah!
A post by Meghan Williams from MeghanW.com is connected to this. It’s called “Expect Imperfection.”
Often in our desire to please God, we hold ourselves to a standard of perfection that only Jesus could achieve. Then we waste time and energy being frustrated with ourselves for not being perfect. But the fact is God isn’t expecting us to be perfect, and so we need to manage our expectations to align with His and expect imperfection.
In my post The Impact of Expectations (How-to Manage Your Expectations), we talk about how much negative emotion we can avoid by managing our expectations, and that’s really what we’re talking about here. Not expecting perfection from ourselves because we’ll never meet that expectation. So manage your expectations to expect imperfection even as you strive towards excellence.
What we may not realize is that often our desire to be perfect is rooted in our own vanity. Yes, we should strive for excellence, but we must remember that as flawed, imperfect humans, we will fall short – and there’s no shame in that! In fact, if we are perfect we rob God of His glory because we receive the glory. God is glorified by His ability to work through flawed, imperfect individuals and still achieve His greater purpose. We see this over and over in the Word. Imperfect people doing amazing things in spite of shortcomings. Here’s just a few examples:
- Moses – a murderer and someone who struggled with public speaking becomes the leader who brings a nation to freedom
- David – an adulterer becomes a beloved king and man after God’s own heart
- Paul – persecutor of God’s people becomes one of His greatest apostles
It is not in our own flawlessness that God is glorified, but rather in the full spectrum of our stories, which include both failures and victories. We need to keep in mind the story as a whole. We need to manage our expectations and expect that we will have imperfectionsand extend grace to ourselves when we do (and others when they do – remember Ephesians 4:2, and bear with one another in love).
Rather than beating ourselves up when we fall short, we should pause and reflect. When I was in project management, we used to take time at the end of each project to do a “postmortem” where we assessed what went well and what could have been done better; where we had failures and what caused them. Taking time to do postmortems after a situation is a healthy and wise thing to do. It allows us to learn and grow from mistakes. But it also gives us an opportunity to intentionally set them down and move forward. This also helps keep us from being drawn into shame, which could cause separation in our relationship with God.
When it comes to God’s plans, when we desire to be in His will we need to trust that God’s ability to lead us exceeds our ability to screw it up. In reality, our belief that we’re able to block God’s plans even when we are trying to obey Him is actually a form of pride because we’re giving ourself more power than Him!
We need to stop trying to limit God. He is bigger than we can begin to understand. He is fully able to achieve His purposes in and through us. If we’re moving the wrong direction, He is able to “hedge our way with thorns” (Hosea 2:6). This is why we need to not assume all opposition is from the enemy. Too often we give credit to the enemy – in essence praising him (I talk more about this in my post Not Speaking on Behalf of other gods (Exodus 23:13)) – when in fact God is at work. Think of Balaam in Number 22:22 beating his donkey for not moving forward because he wasn’t understanding an angel of the Lord was blocking his path (this is in today’s Prophetic Nugget on DailyDownloadsfromHeaven.com called “Press Through”).
Romans 12:2 talks about the good, perfect, and acceptable will of God. I think of this like a GPS system. When you enter point A and point B, you see multiple routes. They all get you there, but the journey will be different. But there are also the routes that don’t get suggested, perhaps because they’re roundabout or backtrack, but again, ultimately you’ll still get to point B. We need to trust that God can always get us to where He’s leading us when our hearts are set on obedience.
Yes, personal flaws, fears, presumptions, etc. may cause us to get off a more direct route, but God is fully able to lead. So choose to trust Him. Choose to yield. Choose to learn along the way. Lay down any pride and allow Him to be glorified through you, imperfect though you are. Because He is able.
As always, blessings to you as you seek Him!
A “Message of Light” from Leslie Hanlin is connected to this. It’s called “What is True.”
You are one with Being. There is nothing for you to figure out, only for you to find that you already know in your innermost part. I made you whole and any understanding that you are less than that is based on an illusion. Be present with the stillness within you and you will find this true.
A final Prophetic Nugget from “Daily Downloads from Heaven” by Meghan Williams is connected to this. It’s called “Beautiful and Radiant.”
Song of Songs 4:1 (TPT) Listen, my dearest darling, you are so beautiful—you are beauty itself to me! Your eyes glisten with love, like gentle doves behind your veil. What devotion I see each time I gaze upon you. You are like a sacrifice ready to be offered.
Beloved, see yourself as I see you – beautiful and radiant in all your splendor. Nothing in creation comes close to the glory of you. Resist the urge to view yourself superficially, or to allow the thoughts and words of man to distort your view. Just as a newly minted dollar has the same value as one that is wrinkled and torn, see your value in truth and not by shallow measures.
I see you as glorious and breathtaking, and anyone seeing with spiritual eyes will see the same. Be mindful to view others through the same rose-colored spiritual eyes that I ask you to view yourself. Each of you has been created with intention, in My image, and is worthy of love and blessing. Reflect it out just as I desire it for you – and as you want to receive.
The name of the silk hidden in this image is Your True Identity. The colors in it are turquoise representing mikvah (washed and made clean), dark teal representing rich soil / fertile, candy apple green representing healing, cayman island green representing refreshing, baby blue representing wind of the Spirit, and dark blue representing revelation in God’s presence.
Father, thank You for Your great love for us. Thank You for the never ending grace You extend to us. And thank You for Your patience with us – May we extend the same grace and patience to ourselves, and see ourselves as You see us.
Note: this word was expanded in February 2020